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January 27, 2011

3/4 of a year

maitland turned 9 months yesterday.

re-reading that statement reminds me this: motherhood is an awful, beautiful thing.

it is so heart-wrenching and confusing to be stuck between enjoying your child as a sweet, chubby-bellied, babbling, bald creature and being excited about where you know they’re going: cruising, walking, spoon-feeding themselves, getting their driver’s license.  i wonder if i’ll ever get over it?  i wonder if i should even try.  maybe these feelings of being torn between where we were and where we’re going are what will help me not to take even one day for granted.  or, for that matter, not to look back on the past and ever say, “thank goodness those days are over.”

i guess i’ll just choose to be thankful for everyday.  period.  end.

i know, i know…that booger is driving me nuts too.  but what’s the point of editing out dried snot when he is eating grass while sitting in the dirt?  he’ll thank me later for leaving it there.  (even though i really want to break out that healing brush.  really bad.)

November 3, 2010

i think zombies must look more rested than i.

  • harper’s not going to school today.  she got up around 4 AM and had a 103 temp.  no idea why or what else is wrong.  she says her throat hurts.  GREAT.  i am very glad she’s not going to school because it is pouring rain outside, however i am OVER the germs that are constantly creeping their way into this house.  i don’t want to resort to having to become one of those paranoid, addicted-to-hand-sanitizer moms (if you know me, you know that would be a ssttrreecchh).
  • got the estimate (the # that we’ll get a check for) from the insurance company on monday.  it was over twice what we were expecting.  i am begging ryan to let us just leave the scab on the side of the van and SPEND that fat check.  we’ll see what happens.  (new headboard?  gym membership?  stack of restaurant gift cards?  please babe???)
  • one night last week, harper was up all night with a stomach virus.  of course i hate for her to be sick, but i do love how snuggly she gets when she doesn’t feel well.  i slept on the couch just so that i’d be able to hear her if she was up running to the potty in the dark (which she did, 4 times, poor girl).  she wanted to lay with me for awhile after 2 of those potty trips.  while we were lying there, i was thinking that i never wanted to forget that moment…4 AM, house is quiet, just me and harper spooning on the couch.  her little hand on mine.  SUCH A PRIVELEGE.
  • my friend Tina is going on a FREE trip to san francisco this weekend.  she won a recipe contest on Foodbuzz and is being flown out there to attend a festival and do a demo for the recipe she submitted (which i had the privilege of trying and it is UH-mazing (pumpkin parfait).  we are all so proud of her (and i am SO jealous…san fran is one of my favorite places).
  • maitland hasn’t slept through the night since we were on vacation in august.  i’ve tried a few times to let him cry, but it hasn’t done the trick and i have perfected the skill of being in a semi-conscious state (basically asleep with my eyes open) so i’m lazy and just give in to nursing him.  i’d rather be up feeding him for 10 minutes as opposed to listening to him cry for an hour.  he just got 2 teeth in 2 weeks, but it looks like things in his mouth will be calm for awhile, so this week i decided it’s the end of the road for that waking-up business.  last night was night #2 and i think he only cried for like 20 minutes (monday night it was an hour or so).  i’m looking forward to not hearing him during the night anymore and i’m also looking forward to my milk supply understanding what’s going on.  i fed him at 6:30 this morning and he only ate on one side.  not to be graphic, but lets just say things are a little uneven right now.  i feel like i have a disability.
  • got a new blackberry and a new provider.  i now have internet on my phone.  it is a dangerous amazing new world.  🙂  the trackpad isn’t working right, so i actually have to go to the sprint place today to get it fixed or get a new phone or something.  i need to post pictures because it is ADORABLE.  purple.  i need to give it a name.
  • another note on maitland: he is very close to sitting on his own (he can do it on a soft surface).  his teeth are adorable. and he’s recently started being verbal…making jabbering noises.  all of this is fun to experience, but i can’t help but feel sad knowing he’s my last baby.  i want him to slow it down a little!

September 22, 2010

7:12 AM

i should probably be waking up the girls right now, but i just wanted to check in quickly.

so, we are moving this week.  literally.  every time ryan or i goes over to the new place we take a box or two or a basket of toys or a metal star from the wall (harper was upset by that one and promptly told me that the wall wasn’t pretty anymore).  our current house is a WRECK and i’ve given up on trying to have it not be.  i’m keeping it clean (wiping the counters, sweeping the floors), but not neat.  reinforcements arrive on thursday night so starting friday morning we should be getting quite a bit done.  hoping that by monday i’ll be almost unpacked and that by the end of next week i’ll be somewhat organized. 

the whole concept of the girls living in a HOUSE for the first time is cool.  yesterday evening i did a little painting and ryan met us over there and brought pizza.  we had a picnic on a dropcloth.  i was so annoyed i didn’t have my camera because it was one of those moments when i thought, “i want this image burned on my brain.”  super special family picture.  anyway, as we were leaving, harper ran out to the mailbox, opened it and said, “no mail today!”  i was thinking how exciting that must be for her….for her entire life we’ve gotten our mail out of a little silver hole with a door.

this whole process is very exciting to me (i swear i have a huge smile on my face every time i’m packing a box), so i’m not in a rush to have it overwith, but there are alot of things that i’m looking forward to in the next 6 months or so, so i won’t mind when the moving in part is done:

  • starting up tuesday night Bible study again with some of my favorite women (and we’re reading Crazy Love by Francis Chan, which is a book i’ve been dying to get through)
  • assisting my talented friend Kat Braman at several weddings
  • shooting one of my own next month
  • cooler weather (which feels like it’s already started, although i’m sure i’m being deceived somehow)
  • Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas (we’ll get to have lights outside this year!)
  • Harper learning to read…i’m expecting to see her doing some probably before Christmas…she is flying through everything she’s being taught right now
  • so so so excited to start painting for the Homespun Chic Marketplace i’m participating in in April.  it’s always been a dream of mine to take part in a “craft fair/art show”, and this one seems like it’ll be really good.  i have big plans and in the new house i have an actual workspace.  SO STOKED to get some things on canvas.  (if you want to see some of my past works, you can go to my other blog, scroll to the bottom and click on “paintings”.)  several of my friends who have Etsy shops are doing it too, so that makes it extra fun and exciting.
  • watching Maitland learn to sit up and crawl….okay let’s be honest: i’m only excited about the sitting up part.  he can stay on his bottom for 6 months for all i care.  haha

it’s now 7:30 and my girls really need to be up!  gotta run.

the new place

August 25, 2010


this little man is 4 months old tomorrow.  so surreal.  it feels like he’s always been here, and yet when i think back to gazing down at him in the hospital….  crazy.  i was looking at someone’s baby photos on facebook yesterday and i almost started crying knowing that i will never again call a newborn mine (unless God’s got a good laugh up his sleeve). 

i’m not stressed, but i feel like i am hanging onto a sane life by a thread right now.  i hate that i’m so behind in my blog…i never know where to pick up…  i think in my last post i said that i had just found out i had shingles.  it was definitely not fun, but i wouldn’t say i was miserable.  i was totally capable of maintaining my daily routine with the kids and everything, i just felt like someone was dripping acid on my leg the whole time i was doing it.  in the midst of the shingles, my little sister courtney came to visit, harper started school, my mom came to visit, and we found out that our buyer’s offer was approved by the bank.

token first day shot:

had to post this next one because i cannot believe how much these two look alike:

and, just to keep it even, here’s a picture of my layne (it was raining one day at the beach, so everyone piled into the hot tub.  i think at this point she was pretty annoyed that there was no room in the warm water to swim.):

July 30, 2010

week in review.

this week was…well, quite a week.  maitland is getting a tooth (already!) and i think i’ve also figured out that he has some type of dairy sensitivity (there’s only one way to figure that out and it’s not fun). monday and wednesday were full of activity, but the rest of the week we really just hung out here…which is really rare for us…i get claustraphobic.  all of my favorite bloggers post alot of pictures and i am lazy terrible about it, so i decided to do a mother of a photo post.  here goes:

monday: we got up and got out by 8:45…followed my sweet friend courtney out to loxahatchee where she keeps her horse, hank.  harper and i had been once before, but i don’t think layne had ever even seen a horse in real life.  she was good with it until i set her up on top of him…not crazy about that.  court was SO patient and kind and helpful to the girls while she let them help with grooming hank and even giving him a treat.  they absolutely loved everything about every minute we were there (except for layne ON the horse).  after the barn, we went to chick-fil-a to kill some time before we drove up to tequesta to pick up my friend kat‘s son, tookie.  he was at our house the whole afternoon until after dinner.  tookie is SUCH a sweet precious little guy.  they all had a great time…even layne, whose only nap that day was like 20 minutes in the van.  

tuesday:  kind of a blur actually.  🙂  we were home ALL day.  maitland was super fussy and i had no obligations, so we just hung out.  made pancakes and ended up in my pajamas until about 4:00.  i haven’t had a day like that in forever and it was actually really nice.  at 4:00, instead of heading to the gym like normal, i decided we needed some outside air so we walked to the playground.  it’s about half a mile and i was stoked that i figured out a way that all 3 kids could ride in the double stroller (harper stands sort-of in-between the seats).  it was hot out, but it was a nice change of pace for all of us, and just nice to get outside for a bit after being shut-in all day.

wednesday:  my friend alyssa texted me telling me there was a free veggie tales movie that day.  i knew we’d be late, but decided to go anyway.  we got there about 10 minutes after it started.  it was layne’s first movie and she did great…SO cute sitting in the big seat.  maitland slept through much of the movie, so that was nice.  after the movie we went to super target and got some groceries for a picnic lunch and then went to the fountains in royal palm.  the kids had a blast and a half.  we were only home long enough for layne to sleep for about an hour and then we went over to visit my sis-in-law and the kids she babysits for.  the girls swam with them and maitland and i just hung out poolside.  we got home just in time for me to nurse the baby and toss him at ryan while i ran out the door to the gym (first zumba class!).

thursday:  we didn’t do much….i can’t remember much.  layne randomly woke up with a gross snotty nose, so i was trying to keep her pretty quiet.  we went to publix and that’s about it.

friday: we had big plans for a lemonade stand this week (one reason we went to publix on thursday).  so, right after breakfast we spent about 45 minutes working on signs for the “stand”.  maitland was again very fussy so i was hesitant to go to the gym, but we did anyway.  i was only on the bike for 10 minutes when they called me back to the kidzone to get him.  the girls played on the porch for awhile after that, which is sometimes really nice (even when they put more sidewalk chalk on thier bodies than on the concrete).  harper and i made the lemonade during layne’s nap (it turned out DELICIOUS) and then when loo woke up we all headed downstairs.  we were only down there for like 15 minutes before we ran out of lemonade, but i could tell harper really loved it.  may have to do it again before we move.  after we ran out of lemonade, one of our sweet neighbors (an older lady named mercedes) invited the girls up to her house and told me to enjoy my shower.  wow!  such a nice blessing…not to mention that baby boy feel asleep 20 seconds into said shower.  we had dinner in west palm with ryan’s sister and cousin-in-law and her brother.  it rained cats and dogs the whole time we were in the restaurant, but it’s an open-air place, so it was actually pretty cool.

now, ryan’s over at a buddy’s house and i’m avoiding any type of housework…thus this ridiculously long post.

just posted on my photography blog, too.

this was one of the signs for the lemonade stand.  harper has recently learned to write her name (good thing she goes to school because i’d had no idea she was capable) and i think she’s getting really good at it.  she writes “harper h” because there was another harper in her class at school who was “harper g”.  at the very top of the photo you can see where i wrote “lemonade” on a piece of paper…she copied it and i think she did a great job!  the “E” is my favorite.

i still have no idea why harper didn’t want to be in this picture.

poor guy did alot of this this week.  (don’t judge me for photographing him while he is ticked off.)

one of the only ways i could get him calm.  today he hung out in here for about 15 minutes.  just laid there while i had my laptop on the counter.

he did have a few smiles for us.  cutie.

July 2, 2010


thought i’d post a play-by-play of today’s beach…ahem…”adventure”.  i want to record things like this so i can remember what it was like when the kids are older and i can just play with them without stress lay on a towel and read.

10:00 – feeding maitland on the couch at home.  stroller is packed and we are ready to walk out the door.

10:30 (not even going to attempt to speak of the things that happened from 10:00 to 10:30…the process of getting from our door to actually driving in the car is a post in itself.) – supposed to be meeting kathleen and carla, but stuck on the bridge.  maitland is screaming.  i opened the windows and he stopped.

10:40 – applying sunscreen in the parking lot.  layne is naked and screaming because i won’t let her put the sunscreen on her face by herself (“i do it!  i do it!”).  maitland is in his carseat on the ground still screaming.  however, i was thinking “this is going well so far”.  must’ve been feeling pretty optimistic because i decided not to put a swim diaper on layne (you can see where this is going, right?).

10:45 – walk from the car to the beach.  miraculously uneventful (thanks to kathleen helping me lug the stroller/cart down the stairs).

10:50 to 11:45 – maitland is asleep (thank you to the angels who were kissing him and singing to him or whatever you did to keep him asleep on the beach for that long).  girls are playing and eating.  harper is swimming about 30 yards away in her floatie (we were under the pier, which is a no swim zone, so she had to go down the beach a little ways.  i chose to stay with the other two kids because layne wanted NO part of the water and had very zealously let me know it.)

11:45 – maitland wakes up.  he’s not supposed to eat until 1:00.  i wasn’t worried.

11:48 – he’s a little fussy.  everytime i pick him up, he gets more sand on him and feels a little sweatier than the last time.  oh man.

12:00 – explain to harper that maitland is fussing and we have to go.  she doesn NOT like this.  tantrum follows.  i hand maitland to kathleen and start to gather up my things.  he stops fussing and looks like he might fall asleep.  i change my mind and decide i might as well stay a little longer (seems to make the trek a little more worthwhile).

12:08 – harper is swimming down the beach again…looks like she’s having fun.  layne is finally sitting in the water playing with some other kids and…wait…is that a SMILE i just saw?  maitland starts to fuss again so i decide i’ll try to nurse him.  i do so very discreetly (if you’ve ever breastfed in public, you understand why this made me happy) and he’s liking it for a few minutes. 

12:10 – carla informs me that LAYNE’S BATHING SUIT IS FULL OF POOP.  oh man.  [you’re right if you’re thinking it’s all downhill from here.]  layne is crying again.

12:10:30 – i pretty much run up to my stuff and start throwing things in the stroller/cart (including poor maitland…he was laid on top of all the towels).  i ask kathleen to run and get harper and tell her we have to go.  thankfully, harper comes pretty quickly.

12:12 – we head up the hill to the stairs. i was carrying a ridiculous load thinking, “this is exactly why i go to the gym.”  i hadn’t put shoes on either girl yet and poor layne’s feet were burning.  i pull her over to the bushes and empty out her bathing suit as best i can (i really didn’t want poop flying everywhere while i was rinsing her in the shower).  i put layne down and tell her “the sand is hot.  run to the stairs.”  she does the opposite.  took 4 steps and froze.  luckily kathleen was right there, so she grabbed her (i had just filled my hands up with the ridiculous load again.)  amazingly enough, during this part of the process, maitland was quiet as a mouse…just looking around from his bed in the bottom of the stroller. 

12:15 – make it to the showers.  i laid maitland on a towel in the shade.  harper put on her halo and started rinsing herself off without me saying a word to her.  i slap myself out of my proud stupor and get to work on the other little gal.  i grab her and the torture ensues.  she was screaming as i was trying my best to act totally normal while rinsing the poop out of her bathing suit and get the sand off of her.  finally it’s done and i sat her down on the towel next to her brother.  put her shoes on and i can tell she’s feeling much better.  she gets up and it’s obvious to me that there is still work to be done on her rear-end.  wow.

12:18 – we get to the car, i get everything unloaded and get maitland in his carseat.  he’s spit up everywhere, but he’s happy.  good.  put a towel on the grass and put layne on it.  i take off her bathing suit and she’s covered with sand.  wipe her bottom and put on a clean diaper.  the sand will have to wait. 

12:24 – off we go.

just realized that my times are all wrong on this because when i put maitland in his seat it was 12:40-something.  oh well.  you get the picture.  speaking of pictures, i hope this one stays in my mind forever.  i’m already laughing about it.  and, let me just say, i am not complaining.  i’m glad my life is challenging in this respect.  i know it sounded like i was complaining about layne, but i’m just stating facts.  she’s almost 2 and she’s acting it.  that’s that.  right now she’s sitting next to me being very sweet…she just has her moments.

June 14, 2010

how is it almost 11 PM?

i need to get to bed, but i just wanted to write about some things making me happy lately.

the kids and i have been in tallahassee since friday evening.  good times.  my sister’s kids are here too, so they’re all having a grand time.  i love it here.  even regular things i do at home aren’t so regular here…laundry, making potato soup, even watching tv.  i feel i have more freedom…i guess everybody feels that way on vacation, but here it’s even better because this vacation comes with built-in FREE babysitters.  ha.  the first night we were here, maitland slept for FIVE hours straight.  a first.  i was delighted to say the least.  guess he loves it here too.

there is a goodwill here that i love to shop at.  i always find good clothes there.  today’s trip was extra fun.  monday is 50% off on all clothes.  nice.  i was trying on a pair of shorts and i put my hands in the pockets and pulled out a $20 bill!!  i was jazzed to say the least…especially when my total at the register was $22.

mom took the three older kids to the city pool around noon.  i put layne down for a nap and then spent 2 hours in the recliner with maitland.  i’d never do that if we were home.  i’d be rushing around trying to mop the floor or something with him in the bjorn.  so fun to channel surf and just soak up my sleeping son.

someone came to look at the condo today.  the kids and i weren’t there.  that made me happy (trying to keep the house clean longer than 10 minutes is challenge).  keep coming, potential buyers!  we’ll be gone for 3 more days…

okay so now it’s not almost 11 PM, it’s twelve minutes after.  i’ve got to get to bed.  my alarm will be going off in a few hours (i.e. baby will want to eat).


June 7, 2010

today felt like a monday

usually mondays aren’t that bad for me.  i try to take it easy on the weekends as far as laundry and cleaning and what-not…usually just do what is absolutely necessary.  most times when the work week starts, i’m feeling renewed from the “break” i got over the weekend and am ready to jump back into the normal routine.  to start the week off right, i make pancakes.  every monday.  sometimes they’re plain, sometimes blueberry, usually chocolate chip.  i usually remember this tradition while i’m still lying in bed and it really is a motivation for me to get up and get going.

anyway, today was a bit of a challenge.  i’ll start now and back up.  at this moment, i just wiped tears from my eyes.  harper is lying on her mattress in the bathroom.  i just moved it there because she refused to shut her mouth and stay in bed.  she’s had 3 spankings, lost her bedtime music, and i confiscated her favorite book until i feel like giving it back.  about an hour ago (7:30), harper came out of her room and said, “mom!  layne climbed out of her crib!!”  my stomach dropped.  layne is pretty good at physical stuff and is pretty gutsy, so i have really been surprised that she hadn’t done it up til now.  ryan and i have been talking every now and then about what we would do when the time came.  i was just hoping we would be moved by the time it happened.  so, layne had a few spankings too (although i almost felt guilty spanking her because she was so happy and proud of herself).  {TIME OUT: HARPER JUST GOT OUT OF BED AGAAAAIIIIN!!!!}  when harper came out to tell me layne had climbed out, i was curled up in a blanket on the couch trying to take a nap.  at 7:15 PM. 

today was probably my first frustrating day with maitland.  he seemed just fussy for no reason and i was more tired than normal (i went for my first post-partum run last night and it DRAINED me…even into today).  still, i can’t complain about the boy just because he cried a little at the library while i was trying to wrangle his sisters and check out the ridiculous amount of media we had in stuffed in the bottom of the stroller.  turns out it was his lunchtime, too…i felt so guilty when i figured that out because i was annoyed with him at the time.

speaking of the library, i thought layne was going to get us booted out of the place.  her hobby these days is running away and thinking it’s hilarious when i chase after her.  her behaviour in there today ruined all chances of her feet touching the ground in the children’s section again anytime soon.  next time we go, she’ll be strapped into the front of the double-stroller that i so foolishly left in the car today when we were there (remember what i said about being drained from that run?  my body felt like a lead pipe until…well, it still kinda does).  

there were bright spots in the day.  the aforementioned pancakes were blueberry today.  and i tried new yummy syrup.  i’m wearing (and loving) a new shirt i got yesterday at goodwill (thanks, sherry!).  i got to watch an entire episode of Friday Night Lights on dvr without interruption with only one interruption while the kids were napping/dancing around a dark room.  it did 3 loads of laundry and put them all away.  to do both in the same day is a huge accomplishment for me.  mom’s frozen spaghetti sauce made dinner easy and delicious.  my laptop always cheers me up.

i’ve said it before after a complaining post and i’ll say it again:  i love my kids and i love my job.  i am so blessed to be able to stay at home with my kids and watch them grow every day.  however, anyone who does it (stays home) knows that it can feel very thankless sometimes.         

man i wish we had some ice cream.

June 3, 2010

newborn love

  • they sleep like 20 hours a day.  and look so darn cute doing it.
  • i love picking out the lint they get between their fingers and toes.
  • newborn noises.  grunts, squeaks, even cries.
  • incredibly soft skin.
  • their poop doesn’t stink.
  • their food is free.
  • innocence, pure and simple.
  • they don’t talk back.
  • i love how everything is so…round.  their legs are bowed.  little hands are always in fists.  cheeks are chubby.
  • so happy that all my babies love(d) to be swaddled.  love the burrito (and the effect that it has on a fussy little one).

May 26, 2010

katie’s month in review

i watch “the view” sometimes while i fold laundry or eat lunch.  they have a segment called “joy’s month in review”.  here’s mine:

some things that have happened:

  • maitland was born (he’s a month old today!)
  • harper turned 4 (still crying on the inside over that one)
  • i had a wonderful week without the girls to get to know maitland and do my best to take it easy and heal.
  • maitland’s belly button stump fell off.  those things are disgusting.
  • ryan took harper on a date to see a mary poppins show.  turns out it was basically a recital for like 100 kids.  ryan was (secretly) extremely bored, but harper LOVED it.
  • LOST finale.  my expectations were super low, and i was still disappointed.  they got in way over their head…no way they could’ve explained everything in 2 1/2 hours.
  • i figured out that Pandora is absolute GOLD in my house.  i thought for the longest time that it cost money…i have no idea why, but the girls absolutely LOVE it.  pretty much every afternoon around this time, i turn it on the TV (playstation internet browser) and they dress up and dance around the living room for literally hours.  GOLD, i tell you!
  • our house became a short sale.  fingers crossed.
  • i discovered the show “9 by design” on bravo.  could be one of my favorite shows EVER.

some things i’ve learned about myself:

  • i feel like more a stranger in this body than i did in the one i had a month and a day ago. 
  • i’ve come to realize that i crave normalcy and routine.  i am laid-back and am definitely not a stickler about doing most things at certain times or whatever, but after things are different for a few weeks, i need them back to normal.  my mom couldn’t believe i didn’t want her to come back and help me with the girls after their week away, but i was really anxious to get things back to as normal as possible.  (let me just follow that by saying that i LOVE it when big exciting things happen, such as having a baby or moving…wow, that would be unbelieveably fun…i fantasize every time i see a moving truck.)
  • i watch way too much TV…especially when i’m only sleeping 3 hours at a time at night and am super tired all the time.  i hate that as soon as the girls are in bed and the kitchen is clean, all i want to do is literally collapse on the couch.  i’d like to set aside at least one night a week where i watch zero TV.
  • i LOOOVE vanilla coke.
  • just when i think i know and appreciate how blessed i am, i realize that i have no idea.

some things i have meant to do and haven’t gotten around to:

  • crest white strips.  they’re in the bathroom cabinet.  all i have to do is wear them.
  • stop eating sweets.  did it for 3 days and then….i don’t know what happened.  i decided last night i’m giving myself until the 6 week mark and then i’m declaring WAR on this baby fat.  this is my first time trying to shed fat while in my 30’s…i’m thinking it might be a little harder than the past 2 times…
  • order replacement chair back for our new dining set (one of them is broken).  actually did this while i was typing this post.
  • finish and deliver all thank you notes.  i have some finished ones that have been in my purse for over a month.  ugh.
  • be more consistent with blogging.  even if it’s only for my kids’ sakes (so that they have some record of their early years).