Archive for ‘confessions’

February 2, 2011

i feel smart when i’m wearing these…

slippers.

haha.  just kidding.  i feel smart when i wear my glasses.  i kinda hate that (wish i felt smart all the time instead) and kinda like it.

i’m hard at work on my new blog/website.  no time to write tonight.  nothing much to say anyway (yeah right).

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January 31, 2011

blogosphere.

isn’t this whole internet thing strange?

i guess it’s not-so-much the website thing (like target or the library or even google) that blows my mind, but moreso the things via the web that involve people connecting to each other.  e-mail, yes, but i’m talking moreso about network-y things like Facebook and blogs.  anyone who’s been around the “blogosphere” (world of blogs) for any decent length of time, has figured out that you can learn a great deal about someone from their blog.  yes, you can stalk someone on FB and learn pretty much anything you want to know about someone, but it’s usually people you’ve met before.  the world of blogs is different.  you can read a total stranger’s blog for YEARS and never meet them and still know ALOT of stuff about them.  [actually, i have many friends who blog, and, now that i’m thinking about it, i guess you can learn alot of things you didn’t know about them, too.  but that’s not what this post is about…even though i love all of you gals…]

there are several bloggers out there who i have fantasized about meeting.  for real.  i would rather meet these girls than any celebrity i can think of…i’m thinking…  yup, can’t think of a celebrity i’d want to meet more than MEG or ASHLEY, for example.  i have literally had dreams about meeting meg.  dreamS, as in, more than one.  pathetic?  maybe.  (more pathetic: the fact that i’ve commented on a post both times to tell her.)  but if i’m going to be reading “articles”, i’d rather them be about real life/faith with 5 kids than about what some terribly-acting movie star ordered at Starbucks while her nanny-for-one-kid wrangles the child outside.

i almost peed my pants when i saw the photo in meg’s post today…i know there are alot of well-known bloggers in the picture, but the only ones i recognized were meg (bottom right) and ashley (top right).  i almost peed my pants because i was thinking about how much i would’ve paid money to be anywhere in that room while all those ladies were talking and crafting and probably eating some ridiculously delicious treats.  make me a fly on the wall (“i’d be honored for you to swat at me with that homemade totally-cool fly swatter!”)or a rug on the floor (“please, walk on me with your awesome broken-in-but-not-too-dingy shoes!)”….Lord, do you hear me?  i’d love to magically transported to meg’s house in kansas next time there is an event like this. 

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seriously though, these bloggers encourage me, inspire me, and humble me.  i’ve mentioned joanne a few times in the past few weeks.  hers is a blog that i’ve read for about 3 years.  i’ve “spoken” with her a few times over e-mail and on Facebook, and i’ve even read one of her books, but we are strangers nonetheless.  it has been so so neat to read comments these past few weeks from readers just like me who are saying how much joanne has meant to them and inspired them through her blog over the years.  (by the way, she’s made a ton of progress in the 20 days since the stroke…if you haven’t clicked on her link yet, you should check it out!!

don’t really know how to conclude this post except by saying: i am thankful for the opportunity to read about other Christian women’s lives and be encouraged, challenged, and taught by them.

January 12, 2011

enter title here.

so, i’m back.

it’s been 2 months.
not alot has changed.
i’ve read my Bible twice. one of the main reasons i took a blog break was because i thought that posting on my blog was taking up time that i should be using to spend with God. i’ve realized during my break that if time with Him wasn’t a priority before, i can easily find something else to fill my blog time with. so, i’m still working on making that time with Him a priority. i guess it’s one of those things (like so many others in my life…i.e. my hair) that i feel like i can’t do at all if i don’t do it well.
i thought for a long time about whether or not to come back to my blog. it’s not something i want to do halfway…like i don’t want to post once a week or a week straight and then not again for a month. my main purpose in keeping this blog is to keep a record of my life, and to do that, i need to write regularly.
i also thought about starting a whole new blog. i’d like something that combines my photography and art and things with my daily life posts, but i knew that if i started a new blog that my old one would be sad and alone and untouched and it sounds stupid, but there’s just too much of my history here. i couldn’t leave. maybe later…i’ve heard there are blog-builders that can move your old posts to your new blog. we’ll see.
as of this morning, i still hadn’t decided if i was going to come back, but something convinced me i should. an author/blog “friend” of mine (i wish. actually she’s more of a mentor who has no idea she’s mentoring), joanne, apparently suffered a very serious stroke in her home yesterday. she is in a fight for her life and very well may be for a long time to come. she is 38 (THIRTY-EIGHT) years old and has two tween-aged daughters and a loving husband. i cried today when i read what her sweet husband had posted on her blog because 12 hours before i’d just read a totally normal post from her about building a fire and homeschool and coffee. life here is so unbelievably fragile and we are truly not guaranteed 5 more minutes.
anyway, i decided to come back because of the thing with joanne. i was thinking that if anything were to ever happen to me, i would want there to be something that my kids could read to give them some sort of idea as to what kind of person i was. i’d want them to have a clue to just how much i love them and laugh at them and how much i hate to clean the highchair.
in trying to decide whether or not to come back, i figured out that i haven’t missed the writing part of the blog. i’ve missed the knowing people are reading it and the comments and the attention i get from it. i know that there are alot of people who’ve still been checking it every day after 2 months! and that means ALOT to me (thank you guys so much!), but i’m going to try really hard not to look at how many visitors i have. i’m going to vent and tell stories about my kids and sometimes post crappy pictures and not care about being a blog celebrity. so there, selfish self.
it’s 11 pm. Maitland slept all the way through the night last night for the first time in his life and i’m really hoping tonight will be a repeat, so i want to get to bed….rephrase: i can’t wait to get to bed when i know i won’t be woken up at 3 AM. at least not by him. 4 year olds get thirsty in the middle of the night too. at least mine does. and tonight i will be glad to get her a drink if she asks for it…i’ll just be thankful that i’m capable of doing so.

thank you Lord for reminding us over and over how YOU are in control of our lives and how nothing is promised but YOU.  i love you for reminding us how precious each day is on this earth.  AMEN.

November 12, 2010

hey guys.
i’m really torn about my blog lately. my goal is to write something every day, but i don’t feel like i have my priorities in order when i think about writing a blog post alot more than i think about having a quiet time. maybe once i start making time with God a priority He’ll clear up some time for my blog. i love the actual journal part of it…like the fact that i can write things about my kids and my day-to-day life that i’d never remember otherwise (this is the only “journal” i’ve ever stuck with). but if keeping up with something not “work”-related is causing me to slack in other more important areas of my life, it may be time to call it quits. no, i’m not ready to say that. it may be time to take a break. i’ve taken a hiatus before, and i guess i’m saying that i’m doing it again. i’ll still be writing over here from time to time.

thank you guys so much for ever taking time to read about my boring life.

now i think i’ll go read my Bible while all of my kids are sleeping.

-kt

ps. maitland woke up. but the reason i logged back on: i’ve also been thinking alot about my true motives for this blog. yes, i love sharing pictures and stories about my kids and my life, BUT i do think that i crave attention and sometimes that desire is satisfied through this blog. i check my “hits” and enjoy it a little too much when i know alot of people have read what i have to say or have given me nice comments (which is alot…thanks guys). i’m over it right now. hopefully i’ll be able to come back with a new focus and and a clearer goal.

November 11, 2010

you know…

  • you know it’s time to paint your toenails when you’re choosing outfits strictly based on whether or not they go with closed-toed shoes.
  • you know it’s going to be an exciting day when the first family activity is getting to see a possum (opossum?) stuck in the trashcan.  (for real, it was cool!  and, actually, the poor guy is still in there…scared to death.  no pun intended, haha)
  • you know giving your kids cake for breakfast yesterday was a mistake when one of them says the next morning, “mommy can we have a special treat for breakfast since layne went pee on the potty?”
  • you know you have too many clothes when the same load of laundry can sit in the dryer for THREE DAYS.
  • you know you’ve got a really good friend in someone when they invite you over just to help them eat a batch of monkey bread.  (thanks, jenny!)
  • you know you’re desperate for some help (and had a LONG day) when your husband comes home to your girls sitting at the kitchen table, in their bath towels, drinking hot chocolate.
  • you know your husband is a good dad when he’s willing to read a book called “Fancy Nancy”.
  • you know you’re too tired to cook when dinner consists of a glass of apple juice and some pecans. (DCF employees, please note: this was MY dinner, not my kids’.)
November 2, 2010

i have dirty knees.

*sigh*

it’s after 11:00.  i’m watching an early episode of Friends.  mediocre.  i always thought it was really cute how ross was so in love with rachel, but MAN he is d e s p e r a t e.

i had a late soccer game tonight and i can never get to bed before midnight on these nights.  i’m always hungry when i get home so i eat and i hate going to bed right after i eat.  so, here i sit. 

[monica and phoebe are taking care of some mystery coma guy.  they’re fighting over him and they don’t even know his name.]

i should be working on my website.  i realized a few weeks ago that i hadn’t so much as touched my website in about 2 years.  i’ve had ALOT of sessions in the past two years, and even i’ll admit that i’ve gotten alot better.  so, i’m in the process of updating all my galleries and slideshows and whatever.  i feel sort-of like i did a few weeks ago when i got SOME of the my skinny clothes out and kept thinking “oh yay!  i forgot i had this!”  it’s been fun to start looking through my portfolio and pick out my favorites.

i also should be painting.  not right this second, but just lately.  i’m doing a craft show in april that i should start cranking things out for…and i figure anything i do for that i’ll do doubles or triples of and just sell it in my etsy shop for christmas or whatever.  i’ve just gotten to the point where i feel settled in the house (unpacked the last box last week) and we are sort-of in-between busy times (although thanksgiving looks like an express train coming this way) so i need to take advantage of my “art space” and get some paint in my fingernails.

my creativity last week was making harper a mermaid cosume.  it was sort-of last minute (i took all 3 kids to the fabric store at 5 pm on a weeknight.  what in the world was i thinking?), but it turned out cute.  i spent last thursday morning literally doing nothing but keeping the kids entertained any way i knew how (they have alot of toys in storage that they’d forgotten about so that was cool) and working on ariel’s tail.  we found the last yard of this really cool scaly-looking fabric…turned out cute.  i made it up as i went along using my sewing machine and some posterboard and spray adhesive (which i haven’t used in forever and i forgot how much i love it…i’ve been searching ever since for something else that needs sticking together.  here’s our family halloween shot:

you can’t see harper’s tail, but you can picture it.  or you could look at a back shot i posted on facebook.  i was so happy that the snow white costume from last year fit layne…it was a little big on the shoulders, but she still looked darling in it.  ryan and maitland were acting out a scene from “the hangover”.  if you’ve seen the movie, you know how hilarious this is.  i was so proud of him for wanting to dress up and for being kind enough to include his infant son in his creativity.  hehe.

it’s now almost midnight.  just turned off the TV.  i need to go shower.  (i played keeper tonight at soccer because our regular goalie wasn’t there.  i hardly moved the whole game because our defense was playing really well.  there were 2 minutes left and i thought, “hmmm…maybe i won’t shower until tomorrow morning.  i haven’t sweated one drop.”  about 40 seconds later someone shot the ball and i dove for it.  right into a dirt hole.  the ball rolled right by me and my dirty knees.)

October 11, 2010

why didn’t i get glasses sooner?

this statement could work on so many levels.  i had no idea how unclearly i was seeing certain things until i got glasses 3 weeks ago.

we had sort-of a crazy day.  ryan is still not home from a golf tourney that started late this morning.  i left around 11:45 AM to pick up harper from school early so that we could pick up my sis-in-law and drive her to the FTL airport.  after we dropped her off, the kids and i headed to the museum of science and discovery.  we didn’t get home until just after 6:00.  it was a nice change of pace (especially after what the past few weeks have been like) and the museum was pretty cool, but we were all exhausted on the way home.  layne didn’t have a nap, but she did amazingly well and didn’t really even get an attitude until she was in the bathtub at 6:30.  she’s such a sweetie.  mr.dvd player saved the day (once again) by keeping two very tired girlies awake and quiet on the drive home.

things are slowly getting done around here.  i decided to repost this crazy list and cross some things off:

spray finish coat on stool i am sitting on(decided not to finish it because i don’t really like the color and i’m hoping it will wear a little bit), move the rug in maitland’s room so that it no longer works as an unintentional doorstopper, sand star for maitland’s room, paint star for maitland’s room, hang all my jewelry on the pegboard, hang full mirrors in our room and the girls’ room, hang chalkboard in the laundry room, books on the bookshelf (not sure if i’ll have the energy for that one since all they do is sit there), go for a run…like every day, figure out some way to make the hideous wooden wall look…not hideous, do the sinkful off dishes that have been there since this morning, put away the neglected-for-days folded laundry, paint our headboard black (this one is waaay down the list), sort through the humongous (?) pile of papers/cards/photos on my desk and put everything where it should go, clean the bathrooms, post an interview on the SoFly blog, empty the recycle box into the recylcle bins and pray that they don’t fill up because i forgot to put the bins out this morning, birthday/anniversary cards, hang whiteboard above my desk, hang antique sign in maitland’s room, make/mail CD’s for girlfriends session, edit/blog/CD for hadleigh’s first birthday shoot, design/order/send out some type of holiday/change of address/maitland announcement card, read for tuesday morning book study group (Raising Your Children With No Regrets by Catherine Hickem), read for tuesday night book study group (Crazy Love by Francis Chan…so excited about this one…and, oops, actually i still have to go buy this book), pictures of the new place for all the facebookers who’ve asked to see some, print out a 5×7 for aimee honse

darn.  i was hoping it would look better than that.  better go read for my day of Bible study tomorrow.  love it!

October 8, 2010

come thou fount of many blessings

is it sacreligious to use that title if i’m referring to my rental house and not God?  if it is, Lord, i am so sorry, but you know how much i’m enjoying this new place.

yes, folks, the condo is history.  we’ve been out of there for 2 weeks, but i’ve yet to’ve made the announcement here (right?  i’m too lazy to read my past few posts…).  this is the reason for the neglected blog.  SOOOOOOOO many many many things to get done.  here are a few that are weighing on me right now:

(try to hear me saying this like the guy who used to be on the micro machines commercials…it’s a long list)

spray finish coat on stool i am sitting on, move the rug in maitland’s room so that it no longer works as an unintentional doorstopper, sand star for maitland’s room, paint star for maitland’s room, hang all my jewelry on the pegboard, hang full mirrors in our room and the girls’ room, hang chalkboard in the laundry room, books on the bookshelf (not sure if i’ll have the energy for that one since all they do is sit there), go for a run…like every day, figure out some way to make the hideous wooden wall look…not hideous, do the sinkful off dishes that have been there since this morning, put away the neglected-for-days folded laundry, paint our headboard black (this one is waaay down the list), sort through the humongous (?) pile of papers/cards/photos on my desk and put everything where it should go, clean the bathrooms, post an interview on the SoFly blog, empty the recycle box into the recylcle bins and pray that they don’t fill up because i forgot to put the bins out this morning, birthday/anniversary cards, hang whiteboard above my desk, hang antique sign in maitland’s room, make/mail CD’s for girlfriends session, edit/blog/CD for hadleigh’s first birthday shoot, design/order/send out some type of holiday/change of address/maitland announcement card, read for tuesday morning book study group (Raising Your Children With No Regrets by Catherine Hickem), read for tuesday night book study group (Crazy Love by Francis Chan…so excited abou this one…and, oops, actually i still have to go buy this book), pictures of the new place for all the facebookers who’ve asked to see some, print out a 5×7 for aimee honse

**whew**

i feel better now.  my friend jenny told me that’s called a brain dump.  exactly what it feels like.  if you are anything like me, you lie in bed in the dark with things like these going through your head and you can’t sleep.  so maybe now i’ll be able to fall asleep a little quicker.  however, i do get up with maitland around 5 AM and while i’m nursing him i’m sure i’ll be coming up with a whole other list.

on a lighter note, here are a few of the “many blessings” i mentioned in the title of this post (some big, some small):

  • to and from the car is an absolute BREEZE
  • the fridge has a freezer shelf which i didn’t have before, see through drawers, and huge space in the door.
  • the washer is huge compared to my previous stackable.  the dryer has an end-cycle signal.  so exciting.
  • the girls love their new room/new beds.
  • we now (FINALLY) have a queen-sized bed (after 8 years of marriage with a full)
  • storage room.  nuff said.
  • rediscovering some things i have that i’d forgotten about.
  • YARD.
  • we’re a good 7 minutes closer to harper’s school.

i’d like to say it won’t be another week before my next post, but…well, you saw the list.

September 22, 2010

7:12 AM

i should probably be waking up the girls right now, but i just wanted to check in quickly.

so, we are moving this week.  literally.  every time ryan or i goes over to the new place we take a box or two or a basket of toys or a metal star from the wall (harper was upset by that one and promptly told me that the wall wasn’t pretty anymore).  our current house is a WRECK and i’ve given up on trying to have it not be.  i’m keeping it clean (wiping the counters, sweeping the floors), but not neat.  reinforcements arrive on thursday night so starting friday morning we should be getting quite a bit done.  hoping that by monday i’ll be almost unpacked and that by the end of next week i’ll be somewhat organized. 

the whole concept of the girls living in a HOUSE for the first time is cool.  yesterday evening i did a little painting and ryan met us over there and brought pizza.  we had a picnic on a dropcloth.  i was so annoyed i didn’t have my camera because it was one of those moments when i thought, “i want this image burned on my brain.”  super special family picture.  anyway, as we were leaving, harper ran out to the mailbox, opened it and said, “no mail today!”  i was thinking how exciting that must be for her….for her entire life we’ve gotten our mail out of a little silver hole with a door.

this whole process is very exciting to me (i swear i have a huge smile on my face every time i’m packing a box), so i’m not in a rush to have it overwith, but there are alot of things that i’m looking forward to in the next 6 months or so, so i won’t mind when the moving in part is done:

  • starting up tuesday night Bible study again with some of my favorite women (and we’re reading Crazy Love by Francis Chan, which is a book i’ve been dying to get through)
  • assisting my talented friend Kat Braman at several weddings
  • shooting one of my own next month
  • cooler weather (which feels like it’s already started, although i’m sure i’m being deceived somehow)
  • Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas (we’ll get to have lights outside this year!)
  • Harper learning to read…i’m expecting to see her doing some probably before Christmas…she is flying through everything she’s being taught right now
  • so so so excited to start painting for the Homespun Chic Marketplace i’m participating in in April.  it’s always been a dream of mine to take part in a “craft fair/art show”, and this one seems like it’ll be really good.  i have big plans and in the new house i have an actual workspace.  SO STOKED to get some things on canvas.  (if you want to see some of my past works, you can go to my other blog, scroll to the bottom and click on “paintings”.)  several of my friends who have Etsy shops are doing it too, so that makes it extra fun and exciting.
  • watching Maitland learn to sit up and crawl….okay let’s be honest: i’m only excited about the sitting up part.  he can stay on his bottom for 6 months for all i care.  haha

it’s now 7:30 and my girls really need to be up!  gotta run.

the new place

August 30, 2010

[insert scream here].

i am busy y’all.  i am not stressed out very easily, but right now I AM STRESSED.  i have so much fun posting on my blog and sharing my life via internet, so i hate it when i don’t have time to blog.

PRAISE OUR GREAT LORD that the reason i am stressed is because we are in the midst of a SALE on our condo!  i am spending most of my computer time searching for a place for us to move (rental home).  it’s been pretty discouraging, but i’m confident that God has something great in store.  we are hoping to close in the next few weeks and be moved out by the end of the month (holy cow i have alot to do!).

in the meantime, i’m trying to do some design work, some photography, and obviously keep the laundry from taking over the house.

i’ll be back soon.  i promise!