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August 4, 2008

showered with blessings

i have 10,000 things i need to do, but i just needed to post this right now.

my mom just called.  one of my sister-in-law’s best friends, suzanne, was due to deliver a baby girl in about 6 weeks.  she’s had an awesome pregnancy, had the nursery finished, and was looking forward to her baby shower – TONIGHT.  suzanne went to the doctor this morning and they couldn’t find a heartbeat.  they did an ultrasound and, again, no heartbeat.  they told her that her baby has died.  I CANNOT FATHOM THE SADNESS.  i cannot imagine the anger, the helplessness, or even the probable guilt. 

when Harper was about 5 days old, a friend of a friend lost her 6 week old son, hosea.  he died of unknown reasons during an afternoon nap (SIDS, i guess).  hosea’s death seriously affected me and the way that i viewed my role as Harper’s mother.  i literally saw every day after that as a blessing from the Lord and my viewpoint completely changed.  i realized that our children are on loan to us from the Lord.  He can do with them as He chooses and His choice is sovreign and always justified, no matter how much our human understandings say otherwise.

this unborn baby’s death has yet again reminded me to count every day as BLESSED and to be grateful for every second that i get to hold my children, whether they be screaming or sleeping.  THANK YOU LORD. 

if you think about it, say a prayer for suzanne and her husband.  they are strong believers and i know that this will certainly challenge their walk with the Lord.

baby hannah was born this morning ( 08.07.08 ) after a scheduled induction.  she is in heaven.  to read more about this family and what they are going through, visit