- apparently i complain about our house way too much. harper informed me while i was sweeping today that “our house is way too small”.
- bludomain is not my favorite company. i am STILL waiting for them to transfer my domain. it’s been 10 days. my website doesn’t exist right now.
- layne is starting an attachment phase. her most favorite place to be: glued to my leg or my hip.
- i have definitely, for sure, passed my love of sweets onto harper. we made cookies today and she was hilarious licking the beater when we were done. she had batter in her hair, on her legs, all over her hands, face, etc…
- i stake way too much of my happiness on receiving e-mails (especially if they’re from bludomain).
- after a phone call with wells fargo, i discovered that i know nothing about a profit & loss statement.
- i am very secretly critical of almost everyone i ever see. i am a snob. alot. (ex: “that lady is way too old to be dressing like that”) my friend amy just wrote a post about this.
- the library is a very forgiving system.
- my sister’s correct zip code (but, of course, it wasn’t until after i’d already left the PO).
- you should always read a recipe all the way through BEFORE you mix everything perfectly and then realize it’s supposed to refrigerate overnight.
- today is princess diana memorial day.

- yesterday afternoon we hung out at the beach with friends for about 2 hours. by the time we left if was 6:30 and they girls were starving. since it was so late, we just stopped by wendy’s and got them cheeseburgers on the way home. not only did layne eat an entire cheeseburger, she ate it faster than her big sister did. i scraped off most of the condiments and just squished it really good so she could get her mouth around it and she went to town. i was so annoyed that i didn’t have the camera because it was so funny looking to see a one year old eating a hamburger just like an adult would.
- butter was 2 for $4 at publix yesterday. when i got home and was putting things away, i couldn’t figure out where my 2nd box of butter got to. when we opened the back of the car to get the beach toys out, we found it…totally melted and steadily leaking out of one end. my car still smells a little like butter.
- took some photos of gunnar. i was just happy to be in the same room with him again. so precious!
- the message at church yesterday was extremely challenging to me. pastor is doing a short series on revelation. contrary to what i’d thought, he didn’t talk about the end times. he talked about the shortcomings of one of the last churches: laodicea. God despises lukewarm. so convicting.
gotta run: load the dishwasher, switch over the laundry, make cookies with harper, and pick up the post-weekend clutter. love to all!
and healing comes in your name
helpless children are safe in your arms
THERE IS NONE LIKE YOU.
i’ve had that song in my head for days. shane&shane version. i love that song and i actually don’t mind when it becomes a brain worm.
nothing special going on the past few days. i’ve been fighting a random cold so we haven’t really done too much. don’t get me wrong…we’ve left the house. i cannot spend an entire day in our tiny living space with two loud girlies.
because layne naps twice daily, my days are pretty much divided into three’s. at least in my head they are. 1) after the girls wake up, before nap #1 [8:00-9:45] 2) time between layne’s naps [11:30-2:00] 3) after layne’s second nap (and harper’s, if she takes one), before bedtime [4:00 - 7:30]. i honestly usually try to squeeze something into each third that has to do with leaving the house…even if it’s just going to the gym (downstairs) or the pool (about 6 blocks away). i have no idea how people up north survive life with small children when they’re snowed inside for days at a time. i would LOSE IT.
harper is in sort of a funk. i can’t figure it out. she has been SO demanding and selfish and pretty much bratty for about a week now and i am at a loss. layne is starting to walk more and is basically a sponge right now as far as learning things/figuring things out, so ryan and i are thinking maybe that has something to do with harper’s funny business. something’s gotta give, though. it is seriously getting old. at least 4 times today i had the thought, “i cannot wait until she is in school.” that makes me sad because i really really try to treasure all the time i have with her at this age and i don’t want to wish her away…even if that “her” is being a brat. i just have to keep telling myself that she is testing me and it’s a test i cannot fail. the other day she got a spanking so hard that she still had a welt like 5 hours later. as soon as the welt was gone, so was her good behaviour. ugh. anyway, of course we still have alot of fun every day and she cracks me up and all that, i just sometimes feel like i need to blog about these frustrations so i’ll remember it later down the road.
layne got woken up when we put harper to bed tonight and was NOT happy about it. when she was still telling us how unhappy she was like 20 minutes later (by screaming for no reason like someone was sawing off her leg), we decided to move harper into our bed for a few hours. i was ticked because my plan all day today was to work on my website for at least 2 hours tonight. i can’t work on my website when harper is on the bed 4 feet away. so, as annoyed as i was, ryan and i ended up watching a movie in “the neutral zone” (the living room), which is always nice.
then, here i am. it’s almost 11:00 so i need to get to bed. i’m about to go boil my new mouth guard and hope it fits in my mouth as good as it needs to to stop my jaw from hurting. i got it at wal-mart for $20 and am SO hoping it will save me from getting one from the dentist (they’re like $300). i still can’t figure out when exactly i’m grinding my teeth (almost every time i wake up, my mouth is open), but whatever.
ryan left for the keys this morning.
i’m up late trying to work on my website. it is seriously tedious. it’s sort-of fun and kinda NOT. i am a horrible decision-maker and these are really important decisions. i’m very thankful for the new site and VERY excited for people to see it, but it’s taking me alot longer to get everything organized than i thought it would.
anyway, we had a nice day. hung out here all morning (did i mention the website?) and then hit the pool around noon for an hour or so. i started a new thing with harper a few days ago where instead of “naptime”, she gets “rest time” and she can choose whether or not she wants to take a nap. every day she’s had “rest time”, she’s chosen to take a nap. awesome. if only i’d known this reverse psychology would work so well, i’d have started it 6 months ago. the only drawback to the new philosophy is that layne naps in our room every day, so i can’t do anything on the computer (I NEED A NEW LAPTOP!!!). it’s stinks, but it’s totally worth it if it means not battling it out with harper every day at 1:30 and not running in there every 4 minutes whisper-yelling at her not to wake up layne.
after naptime we played around here for a little while and then headed to CRchicks. i didn’t feel like rustling up anything for dinner or cleaning up afterwards, so it was nice. the reason we went there is because every time we eat there, both kids absolutely CHOW down. it’s one of the only times harper ever cleans her plate.
went straight to the gym when we got back from dinner, and then straight to the bathtub after the gym.
after layne went to bed, harper and i watched some jon&kate plus 8 (which i think i’m going to start boycotting) and then a dramatic episode of little house on the prairie (good ol DVR…it only took us 45 minutes to watch 1 1/2 hours of tv).
harper finally was in bed around 9:00 and then fireworks started up after the baseball game ended around 9:45…i’m pretty sure that’s when harper had just fallen asleep because she came running out. of course i let her watch through the window. i’d planned to work on the website from like 8:30 until now, but that didn’t really happen. oh well. i just have to remember that it’s getting somewhere, it’s just happening in stages.
heading to natalie’s tomorrow for the afternoon. we’ll spend the night there and then head down to clearwater on sunday morning, stay for 4 or 5 hours and then head home. ryan should be here to meet us when we get back. hopefully with alot of lobster and a tan.
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first up, these are a few pictures from when my mom, candie, was in town 2 weeks ago. we had a great time. these shots are from when we went out to dinner at waterway cafe (have y’all done the twilight dinner? great food at a GREAT price).

next up: homemade snow cones. randomly came across an ice shaver on clearance at wal-mart for $5. as much as i love sno-cones and frozen margaritas, i couldn’t pass it up. we’ve only used it once, and i couldn’t find the syrup in the store (see a few posts back as to why i couldn’t find anything in the store that day) so i had to make homemade stuff out of kool-aid mix, but i see a great future for this “appliance”. harper’s been begging me to make it again…maybe tomorrow.

harper finger-painting one morning…always turns into painting her hands.

this is pretty self-explanatory.

ryan and i got to go on a date last night!! yahoo! i literally cannot remember the last time we went out on an “official” date. we went to guanabana’s…i’ve been hearing so many great things about it lately (and also about how long of a wait it always is), so i figured it’d be fun to try on a weeknight. he leaves for the keys (lobster!) in the morning, so we figured last night was our best bet…first week we’ve had in forever with no sports for either of us. it was the first time in 3 years we’ve ever paid a babysitter. she did a great job, but it was SO hard to write that check when we got home! we’ve always had either family or friends babysit for us, but we kind of feel like we’ve exhausted those resources lately, so that’s why we found someone to pay.
i really, really enjoyed the restaurant, but i was super disappointed with what i ordered. there were no descriptions below the names of the food. i’m an idiot, though, because this was pretty self-explanatory… “blue cheese wedge salad”. it was a quarter-head of iceberg lettuce drizzled with blue cheese and crumbles of blue cheese and bacon, surrounded by cherry tomatoes. i was SO glad we’d just finished a huge platter of loaded nachos….just ticked that i paid $9 for this so-called “salad”.
lastly, my girls playing in our pillows. i love love love how they are starting to play together more and more. harper’s more tolerant and layne is more capable.

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rewind on the past few days…
right now i’m sitting at the computer while layne naps and harper watches “carebears nutcracker”. yes, it is random, but she was with daddy at the library last night. he said, “that’s what she wanted, so that’s what she got”.
just finished cleaning up a painty mess in the kitchen. i asked harper if she wanted to fingerpaint…always turns into really just painting her fingers. she does enjoy actually painting, but i think she likes the messiness of it all more than anything else.
breakfast was Grands cinnamon rolls. feel like i should start making them every friday. or at least once a month. those things are amazing.
last night was the soccer season championship. we played two games in a row. it was super fun and i couldn’t believe that i was still moving pretty fast even at the end of the second game. i felt crappy all day yesterday and was before we started playing i was convinced i would pass out or something. but when the game started, i felt great. weird, but very cool. (we won both games, by the way…the second one in overtime.) got home around 10:00, gobbled up two slices of chicken pot pie and some cookie dough, and stayed up watching tv until 11:30.
i was super thankful for soccer last night because the past 24 hours had been rough. on wednesday night layne had a super high fever and couldn’t kick it until i took at trip to cvs around 3:30 AM. before that she was moaning and tossing and turning and taking turns in bed with me and in the pack n play in our room (ryan had to move to the couch). it was pretty pitiful. i happened to have her one year check-up scheduled for yesterday, so it worked out nicely. doctor says it was probably roseola or something similar. she had two shots and was SUPER fussy all day… thank goodness she seems to be doing much better today…pretty much back to her old self. yesterday she wouldn’t even really eat, and for her, that is a big deal.
wednesday we pretty much hung out here…went to publix in the morning. harper didn’t nap, so that always makes for an interesting afternoon…no idea why i decided to go to wal-mart before dinnertime. she was belting out “cruella deville” the whole time we were there. hopefully the other shoppers thought it was “cute” because i didn’t have the energy to stop the concert. they’re remodeling the store and it was absolutely ridiculous trying to get through my list…entire departments are in different places or…gone, it seemed. the stuff that was there was crammed together so tight that it would be hard to get a regular-sized cart through the “aisles”, much less the semi that i was pushing (although it was brand new and super clean and i was excited about that).
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i usually try to veer away from talking politics on my blog. mostly because i’m pretty sure that in 10 years when i’m reading this “journal”, i’ll still feel the same way i do today, so there’s really no point. however, i do know that there are mabye 20 people who read my blog on a regular basis and share (most of) the same views i do. my grandpa forwarded me this yesterday and i really really like it and thought some of you would too. i don’t know anything about robert hall, but i do know that i agree with almost every single thing he said in this article. enjoy:
“I’m Tired” by Robert A. Hall
I’ll be 63 soon. Except for one semester in college when jobs were scarce, and a six-month period when I was between jobs, but job-hunting every day, I’ve worked, hard, since I was 18. Despite some health challenges, I still put in 50-hour weeks, and haven’t called in sick in seven or eight years. I make a good salary, but I didn’t inherit my job or my income, and I worked to get where I am. Given the economy, there’s no retirement in sight, and I’m tired. Very tired.
I’m tired of being told that I have to “spread the wealth around” to people who don’t have my work ethic. I’m tired of being told the government will take the money I earned, by force if necessary, and give it to people too lazy or stupid to earn it.
I’m tired of being told that I have to pay more taxes to “keep people in their homes.” Sure, if they lost their jobs or got sick, I’m willing to help. But if they bought McMansions at three times the price of our paid-off, $250,000 condo, on one-third of my salary, then let the left-wing Congress-critters who passed Fannie and Freddie and the Community Reinvestment Act that created the bubble help them with their own money.
I’m tired of being told how bad America is by left-wing millionaires like Michael Moore, George Soros, and Hollywood entertainers who live in luxury because of the opportunities America offers. In thirty years, if they get their way, the United States will have the economy of Zimbabwe, the freedom of the press of China, the crime and violence of Mexico, the tolerance for Christian people of Iran, and the freedom of speech of Venezuela. Won’t multiculturalism be beautiful?
I’m tired of being told that Islam is a “Religion of Peace,” when every day I can read dozens of stories of Muslim men killing their sisters, wives and daughters for their family “honor”; of Muslims rioting over some slight offense; of Muslims murdering Christian and Jews because they aren’t “believers”; of Muslims burning schools for girls; of Muslims stoning teenage rape victims to death for “adultery”; of Muslims mutilating the genitals of little girls; all in the name of Allah, because the Qur’an and Shari’a law tells them to.
I believe “a man should be judged by the content of his character, not by the color of his skin.” I’m tired of being told that “race doesn’t matter” in the post-racial world of Obama, when it’s all that matters in affirmative action jobs, lower college admission and graduation standards for minorities (harming them the most), government contract set-asides, tolerance for the ghetto culture of violence and fatherless children that hurts minorities more than anyone, and in the appointment of US Senators from Illinois.
I think it’s very cool that we have a black president and that a black child is doing her homework at the desk where Lincoln wrote the emancipation proclamation. I just wish the black president was Condi Rice, or someone who believes more in freedom and the individual and less arrogantly of an all-knowing government.
I’m tired of a news media that thinks Bush’s fundraising and inaugural expenses were obscene, but that think Obama’s, at triple the cost, were wonderful; that thinks Bush exercising daily was a waste of presidential time, but Obama exercising is a great example for the public to control weight and stress; that picked over every line of Bush’s military records, but never demanded that Kerry release his; that slammed Palin, with two years as governor, for being too inexperienced for VP, but touted Obama with three years as senator as potentially the best president ever. Wonder why people are dropping their subscriptions or switching to Fox News? Get a clue. I didn’t vote for Bush in 2000, but the media and Kerry drove me to his camp in 2004.
I’m tired of being told that out of “tolerance for other cultures” we must let Saudi Arabia use our oil money to fund mosques and madrassa Islamic schools to preach hate in America, while no American group is allowed to fund a church, synagogue, or religious school in Saudi Arabia to teach love and tolerance.
I’m tired of being told I must lower my living standard to fight global warming, which no one is allowed to debate. My wife and I live in a two-bedroom apartment and carpool together five miles to our jobs. We also own a three-bedroom condo where our daughter and granddaughter live. Our carbon footprint is about 5% of Al Gore’s, and if you’re greener than Gore,you’re green enough.
I’m tired of being told that drug addicts have a disease, and I must help support and treat them, and pay for the damage they do. Did a giant germ rush out of a dark alley, grab them, and stuff white powder up their noses while they tried to fight it off? I don’t think Gay people choose to be Gay, but I damn sure think druggies chose to take drugs. And I’m tired of harassment from cool people treating me like a freak when I tell them I never tried marijuana.
I’m tired of illegal aliens being called “undocumented workers,” especially the ones who aren’t working, but are living on welfare or crime. What’s next? Calling drug dealers, Undocumented Pharmacists”? And, no, I’m not against Hispanics. Most of them are Catholic, and it’s been a few hundred years since Catholics wanted to kill me for my religion. I’m willing to fast track for citizenship any Hispanic person, who can speak English, doesn’t have a criminal record and who is self-supporting without family on welfare, or who serves honorably for three years in our military… Those are the citizens we need.
I’m tired of latte liberals and journalists, who would never wear the uniform of the Republic themselves, or let their entitlement-handicapped kids near a recruiting station, trashing our military. They and their kids can sit at home, never having to make split-second decisions under life and death circumstances, and bad mouth better people than themselves. Do bad things happen in war? You bet. Do our troops sometimes misbehave? Sure. Does this compare with the atrocities that were the policy of our enemies for the last fifty years-and still are? Not even close. So here’s the deal.
I’ll let myself be subjected to all the humiliation and abuse that was heaped on terrorists at Abu Ghraib or Gitmo, and the critics can let themselves be subject to captivity by the Muslims who tortured and beheaded Daniel Pearl in Pakistan, or the Muslims who tortured and murdered Marine Lt. Col. William Higgins in Lebanon, or the Muslims who ran the blood-spattered Al Qaeda torture rooms our troops found in Iraq, or the Muslims who cut off the heads of schoolgirls in Indonesia, because the girls were Christian. Then we’ll compare notes. British and American soldiers are the only troops in history that civilians came to for help and handouts, instead of hiding from in fear.
I’m tired of people telling me that their party has a corner on virtue and the other party has a corner on corruption. Read the papers-bums are bipartisan. And I’m tired of people telling me we need bipartisanship. I live in Illinois, where the “Illinois Combine” of Democrats has worked to loot the public for years. Not to mention the tax cheats in Obama’s cabinet as well.
I’m tired of hearing wealthy athletes, entertainers, and politicians of both parties talking about innocent mistakes, stupid mistakes or youthful mistakes, when we all know they think their only mistake was getting caught. I’m tired of people with a sense of entitlement, rich or poor.
Speaking of poor, I’m tired of hearing people with air-conditioned homes, color TVs and two cars called poor. The majority of Americans didn’t have that in 1970, but we didn’t know we were “poor.” The poverty pimps have to keep changing the definition of poor to keep the dollars flowing.
I’m real tired of people who don’t take responsibility for their lives And actions. I’m tired of hearing them blame the government, or discrimination,or big-whatever for their problems.
Yes, I’m damn tired. But I’m also glad to be 63. Because, mostly, I’m not going to have to see the world these people are making. I’m just sorry for my granddaughter.
Robert A. Hall is a Marine Vietnam veteran who served five terms in the Massachusetts State Senate.
it’s weird to be at home on a sunday morning… ryan went out on the drift boat early this morning, so i’m waiting on him to get home and we’ll go to the late service. layne loves this plan because she actually gets to nap in her own bed as opposed to not napping at all like most other sundays. here are some random things going on right now:
- on friday my friend kristen watched layne all day so i could drive harper up to gainesville (to my sister’s). mom had driven down with owen (my nephew) and was picking up harper, and hannah and justin (my sister’s kids). on the way home i stopped at an outlet mall in orlando for a few hours. it was so nice to just wander around for a little bit and take as long as i wanted in each store. everytime i saw a stroller with a kid in it (which was like every 4 seconds), i would gigle silently out of sheer delight that i wasn’t pushing one.
- i just stumbled upon this article and it made me so incredibly sad. i am scared to death of what America will be like when my girls are old enough to marry. sometimes i feel like the most important parts of our lives are being chipped away and there’s nothing we can do about it. i hate living in such a selfish indulgent world.
- ryan’s off work on friday and then saturday we’ll be driving up to the beach house in melbourne/sebastian for a week. i can’t wait! this is the first year we’ve had a repeat for the BFR (buerke family reunion) location and it’s so much fun to know where we’re going and what to expect. it’s also fun to think about where we were last year at this time. crazy that it’s been a year already.
- since coming back from NC a week ago, i have had ZERO motivation to do anything. cleaning supplies have been sitting on the counter in the girls’ bathroom for a week. i cooked no meals last week…seriously. everything was either frozen or from the pantry. i should be ashamed of myself letting layne set one finger on our filthy kitchen floor, much less letting her crawl all over it. i just dried a load of laundry that sat in the washer for 3 days. i have no idea what’s gotten into me (or out of me, i guess), but i don’t like it. granted, i wasn’t feeling great for the first 2 or 3 days we were back, but man i need to snap out of it. i need to go work on my bible study right now, actually.
L8TR!
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we had a good weekend. ryan came home early from work on friday afternoon, so we took the girls out to eat (well, we took ourselves out to eat and the girls had to come too). so nice not to have to cook. after the kids were in bed, ryan and i watched “the curious case of benjamin buttons”. i was a mess. the movie was good (although the 80-year old baby thing really disturbed me), but something about the concept really depressed me. don’t know if i was being hormonal or what, but i couln’t stop crying even after it ended…i cried myself to sleep.
saturday morning harper and i went to the pool while layne took her morning nap so ryan could have some time to himself to relax. it was so nice. it’s great that she’s such a good swimmer now because i can just lay on a chair and watch her. i did have to jump in once after her (yes, i had my suit on) because she got caught upside down in her floaty and she got freaked out, but other than that, it was pretty relaxing. there are usually alot of people at the pool on saturdays, but we went early enough that those people weren’t up yet. by the time we left, there were 4 or 5 others, but they were all just lying in the sun so harper still had the pool to herself.
later, i went to the grocery store to get all the stuff i’d need to ryan’s birthday dinner on sunday. took a short nap…not as long as i’d have liked because the thunder was really loud and it woke the girls up early from their naps. harper watched lady and the tramp and then both girls played for a little while outside in the little pool in the rain. after layne went to bed, harper helped me make a cheesecake.
we were actually on time for church yesterday which is a RARE occurance, so that was nice. pastor is working through the book of James right now and i love it…so practical and deep at the same time. went to a quick lunch with kathleen and brian and jonas…the place is small and it was packed and the kids were antsy…good company, though.
except for 45 minutes at the gym (which was awesome, because it was me and 2 other people in the whole place!), the rest of my day was spent getting ready for ryan’s birthday dinner…peeling potatoes, chopping veggies for the salad, making another cake (chocolate mayonnaise), picking up, vaccuming, etc… we just had a few close friends over…didn’t want a huge crowd. i made all of ryan’s favorites (that i cook) and it turned out to be a pretty southern meal: meatloaf, mashed potatoes, green beans with bacon, fried okra, rolls, and salad. yummy! it was the first “real plate” dinner we’ve had here in awile…since we got rid of our big table, and i was a little worried about people having to eat off their laps, but it worked out fine. it was a nice time of just talking and being entertained by the kiddos.
ryan’s actual birthday is today. he’s 31. i hate when his birthday comes because that means mine is only 5 months away. i’m so not ready to be 31. anyway, i need to run and make him a card and pick up a little before the girls wake up. we went to the pool this morning, so hopefully they’ll nap a little longer than usual.
tomorrow, a post in honor of the birthday boy man.
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one of my favorite things to do is go to thrift stores. the biggest and best i’ve ever been to is in lake worth. it’s called world thrift. i’ve blogged about it before. when our kids were smaller (and layne didn’t exist), my friend kathleen and i would go at least once a month. nowadays i really only get down there probably once every 3 or 4 months. i could easily spend hours there looking through everything they have. here’s why:

it’s HUGE. this picture only shows half the store. it’s basically like wal-mart without the beauty products or makeup or food.
here are the goods i got today. i’ve done better, but today was a good day.

stand-up toy (what are those things called, anyway?), including 3 interchangeable tops $6; magna-doodle with shape magnets $2; j.crew pants $5; banana republic pants (with the tags on!) $10; american eagle pants $8 [all these are for ryan for work]; sleeper for layne $1; princess towel $4; forever 21 tape t-shirt $4; j.crew rugby $3. woo-hoo!